（1）Today I logged back to a singing(covering) app and re-discovered songs I no longer listen to, then memories flooded into my mind.
今天我重新登录了一个翻唱的app，重新发现了一些我不再听的歌曲，然后记忆如潮水一般涌入我的思绪。
Those memories are not related to specific events. When I listen to those music, the smell, atmosphere and the feelings from the past when I listened and looped to those music instantly came back as if yesterday once more.
那些记忆不是一些特定的事件，如同我听到这首歌的时候，我当时听歌(以及不断重复播放）时候闻到的味道，那种氛围，那种感觉，瞬间就回来了，如同昨日重现一般。
For example, Don’t Say by Chen Guanpu, it reminds of me of my feelings towards to my previous relationship, because I was thinking a lot in my previous relationship if I really love him, or I just don’t wanna lose him because I would not accept the person I from half an earth away leaving I concluded back then it must be my fault that he left.(of course I no longer feel like this anymore, but the memory still comes back)
比如说，陈冠蒲的‘别说’， 这就让我想起了我在我上一段感情时候的心境。 因为我一直不断思考，我到底是真的喜欢他？还是因为我无法接受最终失去一个来自于半个地球以外的人，因为如果他最终离开我，这一定是我的错（当然，我现在已经不这么想了，但是记忆还是会涌现）
（2）While I was in the college Campus this week, the mixed smell of body odour, food, kitchen and the perfume reminds me of the year 2017 when I first came to Australia living in Melbourne Youth Hostel, those people(mainly backpackers) come and go, I enjoyed watching them, wondering what their lives are like, if I see some guys of my type, I sometimes imagine if I can join and eventually become important part of their lives.
This was the faith of my life, now it is fading, I need some mental support of different nature.
I am thankful thinking of how happy I was and how much energy my faith has given me in the past, I still recall the sweetness of even thinking of building a life together with someone I love, I don’t think this is ever gonna disappear.
当我这周在校园的时候，体臭，香水，食物跟厨房的的味道让我想起了2017年刚来澳大利亚住在墨尔本YHA青年旅社的时候，那些来来去去的人，我经常呆呆地观察他们，想象他们的生活是什么样子，如果我碰到我喜欢类型的男生，我就会想我是不是可以加入他们的生活最后成为他们生命中重要的一部分？
这曾经是我生命的信仰，现在他在慢慢褪色，我需要一个另外的精神支撑。
我非常感恩以及开心，因为我以前的‘信仰’给了我多少的快乐跟能量，甚至，当我想起我想能跟喜欢的人一起构建生活， 我的心中仍然有甜意，我认为这种感觉会与我永存。
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I just wanna find someone I call home and build home with.
我只是想找到一个我能称之为家的人，与他一起构建共同的家。
My life starts from there
今生就是那么开始的